Writing to Ease the Pain :'(

sorry love, 
maybe i was being too emotional,
maybe i was too sensitive,
i was too stupid to hold on to your promises,
i was too dumb to trust you,
maybe i'm not meant for you,
and maybe she does,
sorry for controlling you,
sorry i took away your freedom,
sorry i was too desperate to see you change,
i cared and loved you so much that i wont let anyone take you from me,
maybe i've let jealousy run in my blood,
u wouldnt understand this,
but that's okay :) ,
i've troubled you so much,

i promise i'll let you talk to anyone you like,
you can even tell them how much you love or miss them,
and you can tell them that you want to be close to them or hug them,
i wont be controlling you anymore,
i'm handing over your life back so you can live with it. :)


Hate that I love you cyg, cause it fucking hurts.


p/s: to all my friends, hope u guys understand, that i wrote this to ease the pain. not to show him off or being jiwang whatsoever. being close to you, is more secured than be with him. :)