Writing to Ease the Pain :'(

sorry love, 
maybe i was being too emotional,
maybe i was too sensitive,
i was too stupid to hold on to your promises,
i was too dumb to trust you,
maybe i'm not meant for you,
and maybe she does,
sorry for controlling you,
sorry i took away your freedom,
sorry i was too desperate to see you change,
i cared and loved you so much that i wont let anyone take you from me,
maybe i've let jealousy run in my blood,
u wouldnt understand this,
but that's okay :) ,
i've troubled you so much,

i promise i'll let you talk to anyone you like,
you can even tell them how much you love or miss them,
and you can tell them that you want to be close to them or hug them,
i wont be controlling you anymore,
i'm handing over your life back so you can live with it. :)


Hate that I love you cyg, cause it fucking hurts.


p/s: to all my friends, hope u guys understand, that i wrote this to ease the pain. not to show him off or being jiwang whatsoever. being close to you, is more secured than be with him. :)

Okay, so this guy totally got it right. Dammit

Missin these Sweet Times...

this was in last year when I was 15. (i'm still 15.. yet) we went to KL in this field trip.. love you guys!

 Pusat Sains Negara

 =)

 don't u miss these moments girls?? T,,T

 I'm hooking up with Mr. Shark now.

Who Am I to You?

Fairuz Izzati's opinion:

Zarina - kind, a little bit annoying, knows how to sing, takes care of her beauty, and a caring mom.

Azemi - quite a strong person, pretty smart, often takes us on vacations, and all financial problem is in his hand. hehehehe

Farrah - pretty (yucks), cute.. but more to cute. fierce, loves tough guys and Nazis.

Fatin - kinda chubby, loves MCR, unique stuff, and... Nigga?

Yosh - naughty kitty, cute, fat, spoilt, and fluffy

my life story

OK, so my life is quite different from other people. I had the best childhood but my life isn't going quite well now.
Why? coz I don't want to grow up. NOPE. not at all. I love being in school. I hate my primary school life but I definitely loving my high school life!! Well yea, there are like HUGE DIFFERENCES. -_-

So I think high school is more about being pretty and popular but I'm definitely not into it. BAH. I don't give a damn bout it. Besides, I'm more to myself. I'd rather be on the learn-all-the-time girls than making friends with those pretty & popular bitches. I'm a bitch too but in my own way laa. Bhahaha.

Ok, let's get over it. The main point is I still don't know which route I'm gonna take after I finish with my studies. What the hell, I don't even know my ambition.

....

Until then, I'm just gonna having fun and enjot these moments with my talkative-fun-hyperactive girls!

....and still lovin Lukas Podolski.

 HE'S SO DARN CUTE!!